By: Barb

Barb — Thu, 10 Mar 2011 17:43:50 +0000

Wow, this is me. I’m always afraid to be myself. I’m a different person at work than home and so on. At work I’ve been conformed to sit in my seat and keep quiet and I just can’t be myself at work thanks to my manager. Now I feel like an introvert at work but deep inside I want to talk, get to know people and let people get to know me but at the same time I’m afraid I won’t be liked. I’m just all messed up. I’ve lost myself and I don’t have anything near to what I want. I don’t even live for me anymore. I live for my boss at work, for my children at home, for my friends when with them and for family when with them. Yet, I’m hidden the whole time. What kind of life am I living better yet I’m not living. I don’t know how to give my life to God. I’m so use to the way things are. I’ve “performed” and/or lived out other peoples’ expectations of me all my life. I’m never fulfilled, even depressed at times, left wondering what my purpose is here in this life cause it surely can’t be my job I get paid to do at work, I don’t even like the job. Perhaps that’s why I’m so miserable and unhappy all the time and yet I don’t allow that to show either. I hide those feelings to except at times I let it out at home when my children do something that upsets me. What happened to me? After reading your letter it has me thinking about “who am I” GOD please help me.

By: larry

larry — Tue, 21 Sep 2010 20:44:48 +0000

Thanks for that inspiring letter.u said all the right stuff.God bless u and your family.

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